I’ve Never Lived This Day.

What I’m going to write must be the most obvious yet overlooked profound statement one could make.

I have never lived this day.

I have never experienced 59 years and 158 days old.

I have never experienced being married for 18 years and 267 days.

I have never co-parented a 14 years and 148 day old daughter. (Although I have once co-parented a 11 years, 3 months, and 15 days old daughter.)

I have absolutely no experience in what I’m doing.

A total novice.

Today.

Like disembarking from a train in a foreign city. Enough familiarity for me to function.

Otherwise - I’m making it all up as I go along.

Everybody’s bluffing.